More updates, pots, p4p wanna be daddys and more!

So the "sd" I was talking about in the previous post has been completely ignoring my texts, looks like he was looking for a two-time thing or a cheap thrill. No loss to me.

I have been chatting with a new guy from SA and he told me he owned a car service business. He gave me a # and I googled him and wow, he owns this huge chain of stores with over 100 locations throughout various states. He put his income as 500k-1mil and net worth between 10-50 mil and after reading up on his business I actually believe it! I was hesitant at first cause his spelling wasn't too great. He is also not the typical SD who is well educated, this guy didn't go to college, but that's fine by me! His business is actually being investigated for shady sales tactics for over billing customers by the state but a SD's business ethics doesn't really bother me. At least he is who he says he is. As long as he isn't being investigated for murder or kidnapping etc his business dealings are his own business. He comes to LA weekly so hopefully we meet soon! This guy I think has a better chance of becoming a "real SD" and not really p4p. He has his allowance range stated between 3-5k. Now that's what I'm talking about, much better than these $400 each time dudes...

Now there is this other guy that messaged me tonight and said "I am ready to spoil you TONIGHT! I will spoil you $$$ and you spoil me with XOXOX" obviously looking for p4p. He offered $400 and I could go "shopping" in his electronic store. If I do I will just pick something with high resale value to sell on ebay since I don't need anything. I will keep him in mind, maybe for this weekend. I'm not sure though. I don't want to do it but damn I am broke! He is better than than the first p4p guy I met with because this guy has his own store so I won't have to "host", thankfully. He sent me his picture and I'm not really attracted to him, but what can you expect...

Another weird thing happened. I applied for a job in the "gigs" category of CL for a modeling/hostess job at a local club and the guy emailed me saying the job was already taken but IF I was interested he would be interested in an arrangement with me!! He said he will offer $2k a month but he will expect to see me twice a week! (Just sex). No dining, getting to know each other etc. Well 2k sounds good but 2k divided by 8 (sessions a month) amounts to a paltry $250 each time! That's as bad as low-end escort! Come one, I'm desperate and I need ALL THE HELP I CAN GET, but fucking is a lot of work (when it's with someone you don't truly like and don't enjoy) and for only $250 each time?? It's better than a minimum wage job but ugh.... He is not willing to negotiate at all. What do you guys think about this offer?

Off topic but I just went to Target today and got a bunch of food. Everything is so cheap there! Much cheaper than Vons etc. For example, they have Breyers ice cream for just $2.79 and I had a coupon off for .75 cents off so it was just $2.04! I think at Vons it goes for like $5.74 or somewhere in that range. Anyways, yea, I'm happy cause I got some cheap food. I spent only $24 and got a bunch of stuff to last me a week and a half or perhaps longer! lol

One of my hobbies is eating, I truly love to eat and I love everything at this store called Trader Joe's. I think it's only available in certain states but I love almost everything they have!

And even though I'm broke, I have been receiving lots of great high-end makeup lately courtesy of "swapping" on MakeupAlley. It's a process where you trade products that you no longer use or like for items that you really want. I have no problem using someone's used blush or eye shadow, I'm just not a germ or clean freak and don't mind used stuff. I have been loving Cargo blushes lately, just as much as my NARS ones. I received "The Big Easy" and I love it. Ironic thing is my blush collection is getting huge from swapping even though I'm broke. It only costs around $1.50 in postage per swap so it's not that bad... Plus once you get into it you can recycle bubble wrap and envelopes that others have sent you so there is no cost besides the postage.

Immediate issue at hand, I have a bunch of checks still "pending"that have not cleared yet! And I have to pay rent on the 3rd at the latest! I want to buy a money order this time cause I'm afraid that if I write a check it might bounce because I have another recurring payment around the 1st... One that I absolutely cannot get out of! I have to wake up early and go to the bank but I'm not sure if they will let me buy a money order if everything hasn't cleared yet! And after I buy the money order I will have just like $20 left in the bank!

I thought about selling my car but I don't know if I should... When I purchased my car it was "certified pre-owned" and it was around 39-40k with tax. The thing is that back then I was making so much money that I paid for it in CASH. Not literally a bag of cash of course, but I paid it in one lump sum without financing anything (cause I had bad credit). Thinking back now, if I never purchased that car I would have another extra 40k in CASH that I could use. WTF was I thinking? 40k is equivalent to my current rent payment for 3.3 years!!!!!! I think I was a little bit influenced by my ex but I also honestly never expected to be so poor. Seriously. I didn't think it would be possible. I just checked CL and I see my model with the same mileage selling for around 13-14k . I'll have to buy a beater like a Civic or Accord car to drive around and if that car gives me mechanical problem I will have to spend money fixing it. Is it so terrible that I want to keep my luxury car even though I'm broke?? It's the only nice thing I have left and it reminds me of how my life once was and what I was able to accomplish. I don't know if I should sell it or keep it... It sounds terrible and shallow but driving my car makes me happy. Even though it's old now, it's no longer new (never was, I purchased it used), I still love my car and am attached to it.